Monday, March 11, 2013

So The Love Story Ends


It’s about time that I tell the story behind the heartrending tweets. It’s almost four weeks, and today should have been another month added to six years. Few more, we could have turned seven. But all stories, even the good ones, must come to an end.

Nimmy and I broke up.

He threw the towel and all I can do is yield.  No words can describe the feeling during that day, when all I thought, this can never happen.  As I try to look back and reflect on my past actions, I’m torn between thinking I was never enough or we are never in unison in our last months as partners. I was like playing the wrong tune and was playing the music out in the orchestra. I’m left out, or I left him out. We’re doing it differently, when it shouldn't be.

The sad part I guess is that I kept closed ears, and blocked the senses of the heart.  When all is falling apart, I was blinded in my optimistic view about relationship and our future. When perhaps he was crying in pain, I was there fighting my own battle in life. When perhaps I was alone and tired, he was there, he's turn to fight his own battle. That shouldn't be the case when for all the experiences I have, I should have seen it coming, and could have done something. I may have the instinct on things, but I decided to ignore and go with the flow. For I’m faced with the idea and vision of love and eternal. My vision was joy, but together, it was not.

Perhaps people reading this and have experienced broken-hearted, may relate to the pain I’m going through. It pains me too, that he’s going through the same.  But I know he is that strong because he was able to call it out on me. It was not an easy task, however I know that he’s happy in his decision. I believe it was the best for us, and I support him all throughout.

And life has to move on…

I have a career to take care of, plans to carry out, and my family who’s been very supportive in all my endeavors. Despite the many failed relationships they have witnessed, they are still there to support. I guess it was just for me to re-learn the values of love in the family. It’s a learning process, and I know that life will eventually unfold to me on greater heights. This situation also made me realize who true friends are.  To those, thanks for listening to me. The wisdom never failed me, that in times of trouble and grief, only few friends will be there to console. I’m thankful for those who understood us, and for those people who never left him. I still care for him, for I know I can survive alone.

I remember the things I learned in The Alchemist. That this relationship may have been a Personal Legend that I have achieved, one should not be discouraged to find another Personal Legend. The heart should move on, the same way that we want to discover ourselves.

As for Nimmy, I know he’s still young and I know he’ll go places. He’s smart, and he’s destined to be whatever he wants to be. I’m proud of him and I’m forever thankful for his kindness and love.

There are so many things going on in my mind, and I hope thoughts will settle soon in the form of plans and actions. I’m positive things will work out just fine. It better be.

As I try to find myself, I hope that the Universe trust me to love again soon.

42 comments:

  1. I admire you both, Leo and Nims, for being strong despite this challenge. Surely you'll serve as inspirations to those who are currently loving and currently suffering through heartbreak, because both of you are publicly dealing with the issue as decently as possible.

    I wish you guys the best and nothing but the best. I guess it may be considered a break-up, but at least the two of you have written wonderful stories together, stories that will be read not just by you, but by us, your friends, over and over again.

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    1. Thanks Will. That's really my goal, that people to remember just the good stuff. Thanks for being a friend. :)

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  2. Friend! I was so shocked when I heard the news.., di q na inakala un, and di rn nagsink in sa akin agad...., anyways, I know what ur feeling ryt now and i understand that it's really really tough..., but uh, pls keep in mind, that we, your friends are all here if u need company..., ayt?

    Ingatz palagi :)

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    1. Sumama ka kasi sa mga galaan! The last time Ube Boys and Madz had dinner, you changed your citizenship to being an Indian. Hahaha. Miss you Theo!

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  3. hindi ko natapos basahin kasi basang basa ng luha ang mata ko tapos humalo na sa ice cream na kinakain ko yun luha at uhog ko, kaya pala maalat alat na leomesia...

    i know you are OK na kahit papano to think na you can talk about it or blog about it na. just remember we are all here to support you kahit na nasa kabilang panig ako ng mundo at nanlalake. charot.

    :-)

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    1. Yup, I'm ok Maclesia del Prado! :)

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  4. Sometimes, you just have to let the feelings out. :) You will experience some down drafts along the way, but as a consolation, someone else has been in your place. Another person can always understand.

    May you move on with ease, and peace of heart.

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  5. Hugs to both of you mars! :) Bilib ako sa inyong dalawa, how you're handling this thing. Mas lalaki pa kayo sa mga lalaki!

    Basta mars, alam mo naman na andito lang kami para sa inyo, whatever your relationship status may be.

    You may be hurting now but soon it'll pass. Sabi nga di ba, all endings are also beginnings. And I know something better yung dadating para sa'yo.If not yung the best pa nga. Ikaw pa tanggihan nang universe eh ang ganda ganda natin ngayon! Haha

    Love you mars!

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    1. Love you too mars! See you soon. :)

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  6. Oh my god!

    it was really never easy to say goodbye as much as informing your friends who have been witnesses to your relationship.

    I admire your courage. At ang galing mo din magdala dahil never kong nahalata. ever!

    hugs leo

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  7. Andito lang ako, kami para sa'yo. Alam mo naman 'yan. Isang mahigpit na yakap :)

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    1. Thanks babit! Appreciate your support.

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  8. well, think positive and look at the bright side na lang po sir leo...

    pareho kayong nagmahal ni sir nimmy at it ended na somehow, maayos ang break up and a new chapter will unfold sa inyong pareho.

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    1. My vision has always been on the positive side. :)

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  9. im not good with words so let me just give you a hug. *huggies* you doing a great job handling things on your own. marami kang kaibigan na nagmamahal sayo. =D

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    1. Hugs Jaid! Maraming salamat. Yung magcomment ka lang sa blog ko, ok na. ;)

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  10. Nabasa ko na 'to kanina. Ngaun lang ako nakapagcomment.

    Nashock ako sa news na'to friend. Sorry for this. I admire the relationship of both of you. I know both of u will be ok soon. Hugs to both of you. :)

    Move on na tayo :)

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  11. What?!! isa kayo sa mga hinahanga ko pagdating sa ganitong relationship, dahil sa sobrang sweet ninyo at totoo sa isa't-isa, di ko akalain nadadating kayo sa ganitong pagkakataon.. nakakalungkot man isipin..

    Pero di ba malay mo sa takdang panahon maging tayo na talaga...

    Cheer up!!!

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    1. Tayo talaga AXL??!! Hahaha. Napatawa mo naman ako. Sira ka.;)

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    2. bwahahahahahaa!! langya!

      nawala antok ko!! peste!! aahahahahahahahahahaha!!


      naiimagine ko na magka-holding hands kayo at naglalampungan. LOL!

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  12. Josh the former SolteroMarch 13, 2013 at 4:38 AM

    it's been a while since i've visited blogs, medyo nalungkot ako dito...
    i wish you both happiness and peace of mind...

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  13. I get to interact with him more in my now defunct Twitter account, but that does not mean I am not saddened by these things. Goodbyes are always painful. And some goodbyes hurt more than others. But you will be able to stand again and traverse the road. I wish you happiness and the ability to bounce back soonest. :) Atty.Mico

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  14. I am really affected... But we're Katy Perry, so we are always thinking that there are reasons for our sake... It may be sad, but the two of you have inspired so many people with your great story...

    I am happy to be part of your journey (through your blog posts and tweets)... I wish you both the best, and let the Universe give you both your well-deserved eternal happiness.

    I love you both!

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    1. So sorry steph, it happened. Thanks for being a good friend and supporter. I miss yah!

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  15. This too shall pass Leo.

    And when everything has been said and done, a fix will occur.

    But it's okay, take your time.

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  16. hyyy.... thing will be okay... i hope...

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  17. Oh Leo, I can only imagine how difficult things are. You sound calm, and I suppose that's a first step.

    "Catching my breath, letting it go"

    K

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    1. thanks kane! i'm all good and im sure the pain will be over soon.

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  18. i am so sorry of what happened, leo. sorry hah, was insensitive when we were talking kanina sa phone :S

    i know you are a very strong person, tayo pa di ba? :) i know that love will find its way for you (and me as well hehe) in the near future. for now, career women muna ang peg natin!!!

    miss you, chika tayo when we get the chance. :)

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  19. oh my god..this is like so bad..di na ba sya pwedeng ibalik..i mean...sheeeeeeeeeet...bakit?? di ko matanggap..i hate seeing couple separate...bahala nang hindi mo ito ipost kuya leo..anyway gusto ko lang ilabas na baka hindi kayo broken...just bent...katulad nung kay pink kanta...i still don't believe na you don't love each other na...marerealize niyo din in the end na yung pagseseparate niyo..mas marerealize niyo na you need to fall back together... shet..di ko alam pero napaiyak ako sa post na to.. --alexis po shadow reador..

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  20. Leo, I just found out through Mac about what happened. I was out of the loop kasi. Anyway, I know that you can get through it. I will be always here for you. Ma miss ko ang loveteam ng taon sa twitter. Ang mga taong una kong nakilala sa twitter world. I know that God has better plans for you and for Nimmy.
    For the mean time, enjoy being single. :)

    -Miguel

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  21. Sad! old stale news na pala to, churi naman..
    I think I can understand the struggle, you feel the drift but didnt do or act on it..
    I'm in a 6 year relationship, going 7 in a few months.
    Diko alam kung aabot kami dun.. it looks bleak..
    The feeling of uncertainty drives me crazy.

    This shall pass, and you both moved on na yata.. lol!
    ganun ako kahuli sa mga followers mo. :)

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