Monday, April 23, 2012

Broken White Shoes

One day I was commuting to the office wearing my white shoes. I need to catch my training class at a very early schedule, 5:30am to be exact. I was on a rush and by some foreboding stroke of the universe, my shoes’ sole flapped and exposed my black sports socks.  My instinct was to buy glue and I did. There’s no conspicuous hardware store in Eastwood, and my recourse was to bet my bills on a drug store, Mercury. I won against preconceived notion that Mercury only sells drugs (the legitimate ones of course), and off I go with a bottle of water and Bulldog epoxy. When I thought having glue was a quick fix, I was completely wrong. So as the story goes, after buying glue, I went straight to a comfort room in Cyber Mall, applied carelessly the glue on my shoe’s sole and off I go. No one told me that I need to wait for a few minutes to make the glue bond and fix it. So I walked towards the office, feeling my shoes to be unusually loose still, only to find out – that half of my foot is half-exposed to people in the office lounge. First few hours in training, I was still fixing my shoes, but all the time smiling at my Mentos experience. Was I embarrassed? Oh hell yes. But I felt that there’s something more in that experience. I felt I become a different person. 

I had a share of those embarrassing moments in the public place.  To name a few are getting bumped by a stranger or an electrical post while walking, tripped on a pothole, parking booboos and so many others that keeping a record requires a thick log book. 

You see, back then, when I was few years younger, I don’t get to let go of those experiences easily. I felt I was not normal. I felt weak. Same goes back to the time when I was still in school and when I was embarking on my early years as a young professional. I tend not to forgive myself on small mistakes. Blame it on my achiever attitude. I have a goal. I have plans. Gearing against it was not really an option. Situations that are not in my favor kill me. Those situations that irk me are things I thought that stands in my way. In other words, I tend to get easily frustrated in myself.  I’m a perfectionist, but my life is not a complete resemblance of what I aspire. But then again, I learned to let go. I’m not sure if it comes with age, but I’m sure it comes from experience. 

While working on that same day, with semi-bare naked feet, I realized that life is going to throw you different things, sometimes all at once. True that your character is being tested by the way you react to them. Was it my fault to experience those? Absolutely not. But I am to be blamed by how I react and shudder.  So I chose to react on that shoe-experience that it’s something not to be worried about and ruin the rest of my day. I thought of it as an opportunity to buy new shoes.  Smiling, I thought I’m lucky to understand that I can buy a pair the same day. I just have to wait for the mall to open. 

I may not be the right person to give advice in dealing with depression. I can’t pass as a life-coach.  But let me tell you something. You know I experienced being depressed for not being able to know what exactly I want in life.  For months, I was unemployed.  It was an episode in my life where I was torn discovering a new path in my career. I wanted to be on a different industry. But then again, being unemployed was half a choice, and the rest are taken to be a time I wanted to do something else.  Along the lines, I had terrible mistakes. Mistakes for taking for granted the time. Decisions, or the lack thereof is pricy, not all people realize that. I got depressed, and it was something I thought was a reaction for a life that took control of me, instead of me controlling it.

I am now on my second step of fulfilling my Personal Legend. 

This is the time where I am learning myself more. This is the time where I’m pretty sure as to where I’m going. There’s no holding back, and my intuition is saying I’m on the right track. Everything is falling into place and it’s all coming my way. There are still some roadblocks, but I feel it’s just placed there to give my plans a test. It’s there to make my life less boring and monotonous. I’m speaking not in an arrogant way, but it’s just that my heart is at peace to my own actions. Gone are the days of ambivalence and high-rise anxiety about life.  It started when I learned to know what makes me happy and go after it no matter what. 

So to whoever is reading this now, I know you have your own challenges. You have your own chasing of your personal legend. We know it’s not going to be easy. We know there will be challenges in life. We go through the same phases with work, family and love. Age is not a requirement. Finances are of no bearing. Relationships and network are baseless. It’s you, and only you who can fulfill your dreams. Chase it. Clamor.

Because the moment you don’t, broken shoes will keep you from walking. 
 
P.S. Our Nikki is back and is in full condition. I get to drive him again.

41 comments:

  1. wow, may work ka na pala leo. Good news yan. I have several embarrassing experiences too. hehehe dati din, nde ko alam kung pano magrespond pero I've learned a lot for the past few yrs and still a work in progress.

    I always thought that going to the office with wheels is so cool! nde ko naexperience yan :)

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    1. Brian! I've been with this company for more than a month now. Bago pa lang, but very promising. Cool talaga pumasok nang naka-kotse. Haggard lang kapag nag-overtime ka, nakakatamad mag-drive pauwi. Haha. Pero aarte pa ba ako? Siempre hindi na.

      Cheers!

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    1. Thanks Inong! :) Grab that happy week ahead of you.

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  3. A great entry to inspire everyone on a Monday morning. Thank you friend, for sharing your realizations. Many people need that.

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    1. Thanks Mugen! Have a great week ahead. :)

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  4. Good job Leo! A good read :)

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    1. Thanks for the compliments Bino. :)

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  5. Leo! This is beautiful. This is what I need to know at this point in my life. Thanks for this entry. :)

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    1. You are welcome Babit! :) I learned life the hard way, and I just hope through this entry, people realize that life shouldn't be hard if you know what makes you happy. :)

      See you again soon my friend!

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  6. @Leo: a really nice entry.. very very inspiring.. :)

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    1. Thanks Natey! Let's squeeze some inspiring juices to survive in every challenges. :)

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  7. this.... inspired me. thanks sir Leo!

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  8. this.... inspired me. Thanks Sir Leo!

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  9. Kuya Leo!!! Conrgrats may work ka na ulit! Hehehehe. Sa post mong 'to kung executive lang ako ng mentos, magpapadala ako ng talent scout para hanapin ka!! hehehe. kahit nga siguro candy na bobot eh mapupull-off mo with your charm and confidence!!! :)

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    1. Oh gosh! Thanks Jelai sa compliments. :)

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  10. wow congrats sa new work mo! and it was very inspiring post! i had one experience too about sa nasirang shoes! naranasan ko ng maglakad ng naka-paa from shaw to emerald street para pumasok sa opisina!! hahaha! and i enjoyed it lalo na umuulan-ulan pa nun, sarap mag-tampisaw! hehehe!

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    1. Salamat mars. Mas grabe pa pala ang experience mo, pero tignan mo naman ang positive vibes mo! Kumakabog. Good job! :)

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  11. "...I realized that life is going to throw you different things, sometimes all at once. True that your character is being tested by the way you react to them. Was it my fault to experience those? Absolutely not. But I am to be blamed by how I react and shudder..."

    love this line. i cant agree more. =D

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    1. Thanks Jaid! I hope it inspired you.

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  12. Naghahanap ako ng words na char or chos pero waley. Chase lang. Char. Joke. Hahaha.

    Your entry helped me a lot today. Thank you for sharing this. :)

    Okay na pala si Nikki, sowi naman at hindi ko natupad ang pledge ko sa mga anek anek. :)

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    1. Keribams lang. Bigyan mo na lang ako ng battery! Hahaha.

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  13. Na inspired naman ako dito.'Di nakakapagtaka kung nasaan ka man ngayon at kung kung ano ang iyong mararating.Idol!
    iba ka.

    God bless you.

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    1. Haha! Idol talaga Rommel? Maraming salamat. Nakakataba ng puso ang mga comments. :)

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  14. leo, this post is full of WISDOM. grabe!

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    1. Thanks Trav! It comes with the experience, I think. :)

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  15. Very inspiring, Leo.. =)

    It really is true that once you realized your Personal Legend, things have a way of falling in place..

    Good luck on your new job..and the rest of your goals..

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    1. Thank you Chard! :) Things are indeed falling into place. :)

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  16. We experience life in so many ways, we often do not know how prepared we really are.

    But you, you had a moment of realization after the embarrassment.

    It's a testament of how mature you have become.

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    1. That's true Guyrony. Thanks for dropping a comment. :)

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  17. You continue to impress me with your positiveness! :D Kampay lang! :D

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    1. Thanks Ron, belated Happy Birthday to you. :)

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  18. Perfectly written..words are dancing once again:) this what I love about your blog:)

    good read! keep it up!

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    1. I love the verb given, "dancing" hehe. Thanks Sunny Toast! :) I'll keep it up for sure.

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  19. Ay may post ka pala di ko to agad nakita haha!

    Ganda mare pang feature sa magazine!

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    1. Lagi ka naman ganyan. Nakakatampo na. Haha. Just kidding! Thanks so much for the comment. :)

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  20. Gusto ko talaga ang mga blogposts mo, nakakainspire kasi. :) Keep it up! :) Ingat lagi. :)

    Jewel Clicks

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    1. Thanks Jewel! :) Keep inspired ha, and stay happy.

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